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hey people,
My mom's gonna help me lose weight.
I bought a new hockey stick.
Tried to drown in the bathtub.
er...going to a movie tonight
and err...i'm not in the mood to update
i'm gonna go find AFI icons
bye
key key
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[11 Jun 2004|08:26pm] |
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| don't hate me forever, i'm better late than never |
[11 Jun 2004|08:17pm] |
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*places spoon down and licks jello off of fingers, starts to type*
alright serious moment here:
I was sitting next to Kara at grad today and i realised how immature i am. I'm looking around at all these amazing people, they all look so elegant and grown up, and they've all acomplished so much.
then i look down at me, there's food on my shirt, cuts on my arms, and my legs are bruised, my feet aren't clean...i haven't accomplished anything.
they start to show the powerpoint..and i've done none of the activities, joined none of the teams, done nothing for the school.
I suck..completely.
i'm ugly, gaining weight..and i highly doubt that i will make it through highshcool without dropping out, and if i do...then i don't think i'll be going to college.
I'm going to fail all my exams, and only feel accepted when i'm at the concerts in the summer, then they'll be over and onto school again..
well yes...
point of this entry: hate me because i'm ugly
bye
key key
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[11 Jun 2004|06:21pm] |
*takes off jacket and replaces it with plaid chuck shirt, blinks a couple of times to wake self up*
Hey,
for some strange reason Izak is talking to me, which makes me super happy...i miss that guy a whole lot! But he finally grew his hair out like the guy from the misfits..so i'm happy for him haha.
Alright...grad...
SUCKED
We all lined up in our crappy outfits and then walked into the church, got called up one by one to recieve a thankyou card, in between.. get ear pain from the singers, then more classes, then a crappy powerpoint on us, then some speeches, then we're free.
Some girls went way over board...with like ball gowns on and spending like hourse on their hair (no offence beanz, i know you were forced)
So some of the people headed off to a fancy restaurant while me, beanz, missy, and amy headed down to burger king.
But i bet they didn't get crowns..we did...'cause we graduated XD although at the counter i couldn't count to ten..so i really don't think they belived me.
In burger king we were all sitting there, me putting packets of salt on my fries, beanz sticking fries up her nose, amy talking about sex, and missy complaining about stealing her pop...and i realised..things will never change. We will look older but we aint changing. Missy pointed out that at our grade 12 grad she'd bet anything that we all ended up in burger king again, all sitting in the same spot, dresses on, and doing the same thing.
I kinda like the thought of that, that we will all be together even in highschool.
I hope i can hang out with Kara some time this summer.
Bought the new AP!! (Billie Joe on the cover!!)
quotes:
*twyla walks by*
Kara: oh god look at her dress
me: *is making gagging sounds* ...ah sorry...puked up a little in my mouth for second
princable: and now think of the last three people who...
me: Kiprusoff
princable: and now think of the last three people who won Ms. canada
rob: Kiprusoff
me: HE'S FROM FINNLAND
teacher: ssshhh
me: GAH
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[11 Jun 2004|08:28am] |
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*pulls up sleeves and begins to write*
Hey,
Gah i'm bored in LA and there's like 10 people here 'cause everyone has stayed home to do their hair and nails for grad...yeah grad is today.
Only half a day of school WOOP WOOP
I'm not gonna talk about us being robbed rom awards anymore since it's giving me twitchy eye from all the stress (*laughs*)
Last night I had a good dream but I will not repeate it due to it's NC-17 content. Lets just say it involved Kiprusoff and as shower room *grins*
Last night was SAVING PRIVATE DAN...it is not finished.
Lets just say it ended with Amy and Missy on the moon with a confused Dan in the middle, a human size spoon, some lima beans, and me watching on the cheese lump with my Kipper 2000 hockey stick (Canadian broomstick)
Confusin eh? haha
Tomorow in the newspaper is a 76 MAGAZINE ON THE FLAMES...god i'm already hyperventalating (don't think i spelt that right)
well i'm gonna go on my Chuck journal since i'm MAJOR MAJOR boooooooooooooooooored
bye *waves*
Key Key
((loves wierd goalies))
*clicks update and goes into friends to read some of the comments happie_dude seems to be making alot lately*
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[10 Jun 2004|09:42pm] |
oh..forgot one of the best ones haha:
bye
key key
((luvs kipper))
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[10 Jun 2004|07:47pm] |
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*turns off tv and starts to type angrily*
GAH!! Attention:
WE HAVE JUST BEEN ROBBED...AGAIN
Kipper deserved the goaltender of the year award..but did he get it...NO HE DIDN'T
*screams*
poor thing!
Alright,
guitar lesssons = canceled
studien = not paying attention cause of the awards
ok we were robbed again...god damn St.Louis stole the award from Jarome...alright i'm going down to Toronto and i'm going to kill the award winners and give them to the real ones.
Was reading an older article on Kipper and roomates and i'm gonna type you the best parts:
According to Commodore, there's a cluster of Flames who spend way too much time between games in their rooms, playing video games like Age of Empires.
"They hook their laptops up to one another," he says of the players like Iginla, Robyn Regehr, Shean Donovan and Craig Conroy.
"And they'll stay like that playing these games, for hours on end."
Ference backs up Comodore's claim. "you'd think with all that hair, Mike would leave big hair balls in the shower," he says, "but luckily he does most of his showering at the rink.
When asked if he'd (Nieminen) prefer to room with goalie Miikka Kiprusoff, a fellow Finn with whom he could converse in his native tongue, Nieminen looks as though he's just been asked the dumbest question on the planet.
"Him? No way, he's too sarcastic to be my roommate. He has no sense of humour."
For his part, Kipper doesn't seem to mind one bit that Nieminen isn't interested in a match-up. In fact, the goalie is the only player---at least officially---who can choose to sleep alone.
"It is because we are special," says the soft-spoken Finn. "And nobody would want to be out roommates, because goalies are weirdos."
So, so goalies have any peculiar habits or rituals that roommates couldn't put up with?
"Those things stay inside the room, " he says.
God i would so room with him!!! Isn't that AWESOME *squeals*
Just though i'd share
bye
Key Key
((thinks kipper's ghetto))
*eyes flutter shut and then fly open again. Gets up and goes upstairs for food.*
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[10 Jun 2004|02:16pm] |
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*laughs at kara and then turns to computer, glancing over ever now and then to watch kara and benji attempt to plug in the tv*
Hey peeps,
Lost our disk again ^-^ but found it again haha
Kim bought me a picture of Kipper with his shaved (from yesterday) he looks beautiful and i love him very much *laughs*
I have guitar lessons after school and then i have to study..no hockey today.
went to the dentist and ive had my mouth numb since 8:30 this morning.
alright i have to go cause kara is forcing me to watch the tape we just made.
bye
key key
*grins and walks over to help kara*
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[09 Jun 2004|06:44pm] |
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*Wanders downstairs and puts disk into the computer, stretches and then winces. Opens up live journal and starts to type*
hey people,
just got back from playing hockey again. We were all playing and then Jason, Kemir and Channing left so it was just me, logan, josh, jordon, and joel.
Then Chris Power, some girl, bobby, that fag justin and some little kid turn up.
So we went against them but they took it so seriously...probably cause we were calling them names.
So we won 5:2 WITHOUT A GOALIE!! and kicked their asses.
took pics so here you go:
( Good 'Ol Hockey Game )
alright bye
Key Key
((Mrs. Miikka Kiprusoff))
*yawns and goes upstairs for food*
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[08 Jun 2004|05:57pm] |
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haha i'm so happy!!
I just finished playing hockey with logan...kemir, scott, jason, josh, patrick and jordon.
I was on Josh, Jason, and Logan's team. we won.
Way to tired to write much
just a quote
jordon: hey this is my friend char, she talks to dogs.
me: indeed i do *barks*, and this is my friend jordon..he has a hockey net on his head.
jordon: indeed i do!
bye
key key
((loves playing hockey ^_-))
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[08 Jun 2004|01:51pm] |
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*walks out of infopro and heads tiredly up the stares into the library, falls down into the chair and pulls up livejournal*
slap flops....the new flip flops! Indeed! 'cause flip flops don't flip they slap!!
It's amazing...awesome!
k: you're so smart
me: i know
So..spent the morning walking through school bored. got 58% on my math test, and 63% on my social (proud of that)
I think i've lost the disk for out project...which will suck if i have, but i cleaned out my binder last night so maybe i left it on my hockey table. GAH i knew i shouldn't have been editor haha.
Benji and Kara left me for LA so they could go to a god damn pizza party *sighs*
There's a rally tomorow downtown for the Flames but it's at noon...and i wanna see Kipper!!
was gonna skip school for it but there's no way for me to get downtown *blows a kiss at kipper*
i'm sure i'll see him sooner or later!
Alright i'm gonna go and bug other people's journals.
byeee
key key
((has 30 minuets left of this class))
*sighs and glances over at Nick who is fighting with the computer, shakes head and pulls out fic*
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[07 Jun 2004|09:31pm] |
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well guess who won..here's a hint...it wasn't us...need another one...the whole of Canana is going to declare war on america...get it...alright good.
so to take out my anger, i called up jordon and we had a viscous game of lacrosse.
WE WERE SO ROBBED!
WE SCORED IN GAME 6..GELINAS SCORED AND THEY TOOK IT AWAY FROM US!!!!!!!!! THAT CUP IS OURS DAMN IT!!
comeautastic: GAH the flames lost
poshisvic: awww!!
poshisvic: ((::cries:: )
comeautastic: ((*bursts into tears*...the worst thing is...i'm in calgary..so like...GAH *is lost for words again*))
poshisvic: ((awww!!! Are you really in Calgary??))
comeautastic: ((yeah i live here))
poshisvic: ((that's soooo cool))
comeautastic: ((not right now it isn't...any minuet now the red mile is gonna cause a riot))
poshisvic: ((aww))
comeautastic: ((the worst thing is..we should of won in game 6 but the refs are fucking blind assholes))
poshisvic: ((Well you should kill them))
comeautastic: ((oh i will...i will not rest until the stanley cup is here...where it belongs))
and my word stays strong
goodbye
key key
((still loves kipper *blows him a kiss))
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[07 Jun 2004|07:38pm] |
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GAH
i can't watch it any more. Tampa has already scored on us in the first period.
6/7 games in this series, whoever gets the first goal...has won.
But i'm sure that's just a coincidence. I'm not gonna judge their playing or saving...i'm just gonna sit here and listen to it in the background.
GAH GAH GAH
*sniffs*
anyways,
i found a bandaid and put it over my cut, parents haven't noticed yet...in fact no one noticed today which is awesome!
lunch time was cold so we sat inside
FUCK FUCK FUCK TAMPA JUST FUCKING SCORED
that's it...it's over..we can't win
there's no fucking way we can win now.
fuck this...*takes off jersey and throws it at the chair, holds head in hands*
I hate insulting kipper but i think he's been practicing with the glove too much..so he's depending on the glove and not his stick which...is...why...*breathes*..we're going to lose..the stanley cup...
god i don't think i even wanna listen to it now...but i can't be bothered to get up and go change it.
*sighs and rests head against chair*
we were so close...
*sighs once more and stretches*
Started writing a fic in class today, not sure where it's going...not sure if i even want to continue with it, it was gonna be based on kipper.
But hey...the Roughnecks won Calgary the lacrosse cup..and that was fucking amazing, scoring in double overtime. They're the real champions, considering they only had one shot.
Flames had their shot...it was Saturday..and we lost.
*screams in head and stares out of the window*
I wanna go outside...but there's no where really to go...rocky ridge sucks for that. I can sneak out easily enough but there's no where to go. If i'm upset i go to the bench on top of the hill. If i'm bored i'll just sit in the garden.
Maybe when the mall gets up i can go down there when i'm bored..it's like 2 minets walking away from my house.
THE PILE OF DIRT GAS STATION (haha amy)
Kyle tried to help me today..but it doesn't really work...i'm incrediably stubborn when it comes to what i want.
my band aids annoying..it's not really a bandaid since we didn't have any. It's more of a sticky piece of material.
"It never rains..but it pours." it does indeed...since Clark just got a PENALTY...god damn it you guys!! This is NOT the time to get penaltys!!!!!!
Key Key
((hates this))
*clicks update journal and heads to the bathroom, not looking at the tv, and not looking at the mirror*
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Ok here's the letter i wrote on Sunday with Missy and Amy to try and get someones parents to let me hang out with their kids.
When i put (crossed out) it means in the origonal i tried to cross out the sentance...yeah you'll understand it more when ya read it:
( Raping those hamster things )
Beanz want's Chuck's tongue ahaha i'm gonna tell him that..somehow...
alright, flames game tonight...which is making me happy.
Held tightly to my Kipper poster on the bus..surprisingly it made me feel better.
i might post my depression letter later so you can kinda understand what it's like a little better (ok i tried to turn that into a seb quote..but it didnt work...)
oh yeah..one more quote before i go:
*pulls out nail varnis remover from bag*
Aizar: what's that for?
beanz: It's her way to get drunk
me: oh yeah..if i'm pissed off i just pull this out and take a sip...get fucking drunk..it's damn good.
beanz: put it in a paper bag...*makes drinking movements*
aizar: *picks up bottle and smells it*
beanz: what the hell are you doing?
oh yeah..one more:
french teacher: melanie
melanie: me?
beanz: no the melanie behind you...*stares*
haha i've perfected my Beanz stare XP
alright bye
Key Key
((luvs mattie!)) </font>
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Benji has decided to wear flood pants for grad...which is awesome...if he trips i'm gonna laugh my ass off.
Right now we're in the library workig on our magazine, Leo and Nick are slow bumholios so we're waiting for them. I've still got to do the interview which sucks.
Flames game tonight...kinda nervous...Kaleb yelled at me when i said they might not have a chance so for kaleb:
GO FLAMES GO
blaaaaaah
what else,
well nothing has happened really since this is the first period,
Amy said she's gonna wear her dress today..haha...i wonder if she doesn, i wore my tanktops.
ok bye
key key
((luvs sebbie))
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well...to tell the truth...i just cut...and it felt blooddy fucking well good.
Just one...but i'm sure i'll do more.
It's bleeding really good...i've never really bled this much before...my hand feel wierd...ah well it's beautiful.
*stares at it lovingly*
Why did i cut? Because not cutting has driven me to the point that the simplest thing will make me sad.
I've also gotten down on myself alot.
Last week i took a magazine and made all the models in it ugly and fat...and i don't like looking in mirrors anymore. I'm afraid of what i'll see.
I think this time i'll cut nice and slow...do it cut by cut...one every couple of minuets...to make it more sensual.
*watches the blood pour down arm*
yeah...it's gorgeous.
Today i went down to Missy's house with Amy, it was fun, i love Max (her dog) he's so fluffy and soft and adorable.
They drew while i sat there looking useless...then i wrote a stupid letter to someones parents as a joke...i'll try and post it later..
It's all about raping dogs and kids and drawing penises...i never said i was sane...XP
well i have to go and well do nothing...maybe i could write a fic..or read a fic..or cut...or...make more icons LOL
alright
bye
Key Key
((thinks razors are pretty))
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[06 Jun 2004|01:49pm] |
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well i'm in between studying right now..and Beanz isn't online so i'm major bored.
talking to kyle about some parade.
Flames lost last night...i'm no so sure if we can win this anymore.
Made some Flames icons in honour of them though haha
i've made alot of icons recently..it's rather sad. I wanna make some blink 182 ones but i don't have any good pics.
i made a few ones this morning, one of dave and pierre that says lovers, one of seb that says angel from my nightmare, one of devon (from much music) that says emo queen, umm...one of dave, seb, and pierre that says this is love.
yeah i really have no life.
it's raining right now (the drops of rain they fall all over) and there was a thunder storm this morning. Hope it clears up for tomorow mainly cause i don't wanna stand at the bus stop in the rain.
like violence you kill me
like vioelence you have me
forever and after
PHIL YOU HAVE TO UPDATE *glares*
haha
ahhh only 15 more minuets and then i have to study again haha..i've just got to read a chapter over and then go for a break for 15 mins and then read the next chapter and so forth.
It won't help...i'll still fail...i always do.
Last math test i was real close though, i got 49% haha very close.
where do we go
after we're gone
i should really give this cd back to missy..and amber should really fucking give mine back. I need to buy some more cds so i can burn this one.
Rock Against Bush is awesome..everyone go buy it..oh and while you're at it..go buy OOYM.
help them out!
i wish i could help
but words escape me
it's too late to save me
you're too late
you're too late
alright i'm gonna go read the chapter and then come back on.
Beanz if you come on..stay on cause i'll be on in like 5 mins
Key Key
((down down))
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god i'm so nervous...so i made a lot of icons and filled out some requests..god i'm neeeeeeeeervous *cries* it's in over time.
ok here they are:
( cure for nervousness )
ok bye
Key Key
((is going to have a heartattack))
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